Tired and Saturated

This week has been crazy to me. I usually take things very easy at work, as I believe I have all the capability to solve issues within time. But this week is different story. First, when I reach office on Monday morning, suddenly I was told that I will be the owner of MID product. Not that I don't want to own the product, I have so many products in hand and most of the products are still in development stage and some are still seeing issue at the customer's site. I'm not the only one worry about taking the ownership of that product, most of the colleagues also same. I was lucky though, as my manager asked my workload and bandwidth before committing to the other manager regarding the product ownership, hence I rejected it and in the end, another guy will take over the ownership of that product. Then I was requested to do some looping test over one of the board which has ECO (the looping still ongoing now). Next another board also required looping as we are seeing some issue in customer site and the design engineer did some ECO to the board. This is not all. I'm still in the learning phase of developing an executive to run test program and was already assigned to do some of the more advanced development. Well, I do enjoy my work, but at the same time these workloads were enough to almost prevent me from blogging as I'm quite saturated and exhausted. Anyway, just to vent out something that come across my mind. Again, I would like to stress that I enjoy my work, but this week has been real crazy to me :)

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Prejudice and Despise

During the last weekends, I was talking with my brother regarding my attitude towards others and his reply really kept me thinking. To me, there are different classes or ranking for each people, family and friend as well. Taking myself as benchmark.....some will eventually falls to higher rank than me or lower rank than me or just the same rank. Everything is just based on my perception taking into account a lot of things (in which I won't be able to disclose it). What I hated most is that I judge others so harsh and that I judge my family members even harsher. It's like for those not so close to me, their passing marks can be just 20%, and they are like the same rank as me, above the passing marks meaning they have high ranking. For those closer to me especially my family members, I'll set their passing marks higher like maybe 3x or 4x more. Eventually my perception as the Judge leads to some straineous relationship with some others falling under the lower ranking. In actual fact, I will despise those from the lower rank category, if they do not show any initiative to change to better.


This one attitude, which my brother told me, makes me lose respect to those I despises, even family member. His feedback really troubles me, as what he told me was quite true. I have becoming someone I have hated to become.




I will really have to change from becoming the man I despises. Not only it has change me to become an arrogant monster, it also ruin some of my relationship. Well, guess I'm done venting my anger towards others....now it is time for me to change to become better. Remember.....I despises those who do not want to change to become better, especially when they are from lower rank category.

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